Dont know why, but I wanted to post something that I wrote about 2 years ago. So here it is, I hope you can take something from it:
Lessons from Annie
This is not meant to be sacrilegious or blasphemous. If anything, what I want more than anything else is to magnify and glorify my Lord in what I wrote here. To Him…to my Savior this is dedicated. It is my wish that He is pleased!
I wish I could tell you the exact date that I brought Annie home. It was August, I think. I bet if you asked my kids they would know! We all do know when she was born, May 15, 1999. (And again the only reason I know is because my children would always celebrate her birthday.) If “all dogs go to heaven”, then our little Annie went to be with the Lord on November 17, 2006. She was a great dog! She was a gift from God in so many ways. Of the many ways she made us smile or was a lift to our spirits, I will have a tough time recalling them all. I hope that you will see something special in our Lord by reading what I have to say about Annie.
Annie was our dog…our first dog. I fought against having a dog when we lived in Pennsylvania because I knew the responsibility and care and cost involved. But when we moved to Georgia, the children were not “overly-thrilled” with the move. In fact, they were not happy at all! So Mirka and I talked about what we could do to make the transition smoother...easier. A puppy would be the perfect gift; something that they could attach themselves to and this new home. A puppy would be something that they could love and not be so homesick over the move. She could help us teach the kids how to adjust and how to be happy where they were. And one thing about Annie, wherever she was, she was always happy to be there.
What kind of dog was Annie? She was a Rat Terrier. If you know anything about this breed of dog, they are a small short haired dog, very similar in appearance and closely related to Jack Russell Terriers. (At least that is what I see and what I am told.) The thing about Rat Terriers is that they are very high strung. I think they were bred originally to hunt for and chase small animals like squirrels and rabbits. Believe me, if she was allowed to, Annie would chase a squirrel or a bird wherever it went and sometimes that was fun to watch, other times it got scary, especially when she was younger. Whenever a squirrel would be on the lawn or somewhere in the sight of her vision, Annie would go crazy wanting to go after that animal. If she was in the house, she would bark incessantly and go from window to window attempting to somehow find a way to “get at” that animal. Eventually she would calm down and lie back down on the couch, but only after she had her say in the matter.
It used to amaze me that she had such uncanny instincts. She could be lying on the couch, resting or sleeping and all of a sudden her ears would perk up and stand at attention. (I used to say that she would have her antenna up when she did that.) But when she did that, you knew that she was sensing something. And that something was most likely an animal or a person in the yard. I never could understand how she would know that, but she always did. The truly amazing thing is that sometimes, the person or animal would be on the street and if you have not seen or been to our house, then let me tell you that the house is a good 100+ feet from the street…with woods in between. How she would know someone was “nearby”, while she was sleeping on the couch still fascinates me to this day!
As I stated earlier, Annie was a gift from God. She was a gift from the moment I brought her home all the way until the moment of her death. “Do not forget to entertain strangers, for by so doing some people have entertained angels without knowing it.” Hebrews 13:2
I believe in angels! I believe with all my heart that the Lord has these beings in His service for whatever reason He chooses to use them. Like many people, perhaps many of you have had this same thought; I wonder if the verse above from Hebrews is one I have actually experienced at some point in my life. I am quite convinced that the Lord was talking about angels “masquerading” as people. There are too many references to that fact in the bible for me to argue that point. But I now wonder if at various times and in various places if the angels could take on the form of an animal…perhaps even a small dog named Annie! I make that comment because of what I feel Annie was able to teach me over the years. (If you talk to Mirka, Toma Ania or Andy, I am sure they all have their own stories and memories that are precious to them. I am equally sure they have their own lessons they learned from her as well.)
Annie was ALWAYS glad to see me. She was always glad to see people. She would bark and her tail would wag whenever anyone came to the door or was in the yard. But when one of us came home, she would go crazy. As I just mentioned, the others would have to speak for themselves, but for myself, I got the distinct impression that Annie was in love with me! She would want me to pet her, to hold her and to let her lick my face over and over. She would not leave me alone until I acknowledged her love for me. And that is an important point I need to make…she wanted to show me her love for me and she would not take rejection or ignoring her as an appropriate response. She would “love me to death” until I agreed with her…acknowledged her love and allowed her to love me. Isn’t that the way God is at times. He will love us and love us and love us…way beyond what we deserve or even ask for. Yet he will “pester us” with His continual shower of love until we see and acknowledge what a great love for us He truly has!!! What I came to discover over the years is that Annie was saying loud and clear, “I am so glad you are here!!!!! I am so happy that you are finally home to be with me.” And again, isn’t that just like the Lord! He always wants to see us. He always wants for us to come home and when we do, He is so happy and He lavishes His love upon us.
There were many times when I would get home very tired and Annie would get excited as she always did and I just did not want to pet her, hold her etc… So I would push her away and she would still show me she still loved me. She would never be upset with me or cop an attitude. Her love was truly unconditional.
I know that if any of you own or have owned a dog or some pet that you loved very much, you can relate to what I just said. Annie loved to see me! Annie ALWAYS wanted to see me! I could push her away time and time again and the next time I came home, she still was very excited to see me! I miss that! I miss that a lot! Forgiveness can only be asked for by people; sometimes to people whom we may have offended…always to God whom we do offend often. Asking a Rat Terrier for forgiveness does not make sense, but if I could, I would ask Annie to forgive me for pushing her away all those times! All she wanted to do was to show me she loved me. She had no ulterior motive, only a devotion to me...to us!
Annie died by getting hold of some chocolate that she dug up somewhere. We took her to the Vet and we thought that Annie would be okay, but that night she slipped into eternity and left us. But her memory is still very strong and her love remains! And even in death, she was used by the Lord to help out this family. I would not and will not betray any confidences, but very soon after her death, something came to our attention that was very impactful to Mirka and me. Someone that is very close to us was struggling with a serious sin issue in their life. And only this person and the Lord could tell you why Annie’s death had such a profound impact on them, but they told Mirka and I about it and they told us that they felt Annie’s death was a wake up call for them. They were slowly getting sucked into a habit that was not good for them and not pleasing to the Lord. And all pleasantries aside, it was sin, plain and simple. It was a sin that the “world” would say, “what’s the big deal!” But to this person, to us, but more importantly, to the Lord, it is a big deal…a very big deal!!!
Sin has this very alluring appeal to it and on the surface shows a very pleasing appearance. That allure can be almost intoxicating and it will slowly real us in and like a fish going after a worm or some lure, we are about to be ensnared without ever realizing it. Sin has its moments of pleasure (from a worldly perspective that is), but inside, sin is dark, insidious and dank and has a stench to the nostrils. Sin is an offense to God and it is why Jesus had to die.
The wonderful thing about God is that He promises that if we confess our sins He is faithful and just to forgive us of our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. We will all have this tendency to sin. That is our human flesh nature wanting, craving desiring to fulfill what pleases it. For those of us that know the Lord, we also have a spirit nature…the very Holy Spirit dwelling within us. The Lord promises in His Word that in every temptation that the enemy throws at us, He will provide a way to escape it. We all get tempted…even Jesus was tempted. But in our temptations, we can be like Jesus and not sin. We can escape because the Lord promised us He would help us.
When Annie ate that chocolate, I am sure she had much pleasure in consuming it. I bet it tasted good and she was quite pleased with herself. And for a moment, she enjoyed the pleasure of what she did. Then the reality of the situation hit her and she knew something was not right and she began to moan and she began to cry and she knew she messed up and that something was wrong.
Her “dog nature”, her instincts told her to sniff out food and eat it. She did not “think” about what the consequences would be. She just acted. The aroma was pleasing to her keen sense of smell and she got into something that was very bad for her. Like the sins in our lives that so easily entangle, we sometimes do not think…we just act. And as much as the Lord promises to forgive us, He does not promise to stop any consequences that result out of our sin. In Annie’s case, it was death. For each of us, it could be a number of things including death, but know this; the consequences of our actions affect more than just us. It affects those around us. It affects those we love and usually a lot of innocent people are hurt and deeply affect by the sin in our life.
We miss Annie and we are sad at her loss. We expected to have her around for a long time. In fact, as the kids got older, and eventually move out of the house, I often wondered if one of them would take her with them or of she would stay with us. Now we will never know.
There is so much more about Annie I wanted to write and maybe someday I will sit back and do just that, write some more. In the meantime, take these lessons from Annie:
- Love unconditionally
- Be joyful wherever you are in life
- Be a gift from God to someone in your life. Allow them to see that you are in their lives because God knew it would please and benefit you both
- Forgive when wronged…always!
- Be glad for the people in your life, even the ones that push you away.
- Be happy to see people come home (I know Jesus is)
- Have your spiritual antennae up at all times, even if you are sleeping
- Stay away from something that looks, feels, smells, and has all the appearance of something beautiful and good, when you KNOW that it is not!!!
- Know that this life is way too brief it will pass by very quickly.
- Finally, be willing to die if you have to, in order to save someone from destruction. (Annie moved on her instincts, but I bet with all my heart, that if she could have “volunteered” to die for this person who was getting into that sin, she would have. That’s how much she loved unconditionally.)
Not until I am in heaven, will I truly understand the depth of the love that God has for me. I know it is immense and I know it is vast and I know it is beyond my comprehension. Until I am in His presence, all I can do is live by faith that He will see me through everything in my life and know that His love is far reaching and everlasting!!!
We miss you Annie!
Always with us…always in our hearts!